Charlotte Grace - My Whole Wide World

On the 5th of January 2009 I gave birth to my daughter, Miss Charlotte Grace best day of my life by far.

My labour seemed like it went forever and when she was born she wasnt breathing. 

I was so scared that I was going to lose my baby girl, but after about 5 mins on oxygen she was fine and I got to hold my baby for the very first time.

My very first hold of Charlotte Grace.

It was the most amazing feeling that I have ever felt. We stayed at hospital for a few days and then we got to bring our baby home. I had alot of trouble breastfeeding so we went down to Dans Mums house and she helped us get through this. I expressed for the first 3 weeks of Charlottes life and I'm so happy I did cos I ended up feeding her until she was 7months old.

I have enjoyed watching my little baby grow into now a 1yr old. She is her own little person.

Motherhood has not been easy for me at all, Ive had really bad days where I havent cared about anything or anyone but Í always mangaged to pull through for Charlotte because she is my whole world and Icouldn't breath without her.

Charlotte started crawling at around 6mths and walking at 10mths and she started swimming lesson at 8mths old which she loves so much.

Charlotte Grace at 12mths of age.

My Darling Baby Sister

On the 8/9/09 my sister Simone was killed in a car crash by a driver that was speeding and on drugs

Simone was a young mum to Tyler Mark he was just 8mths old when his mother was taken from his life.

We are currently fighting for him in court which is becoming a real big mess as we are griving for her and have these cruel people that were meant to love Simone stop us from see her little boy.

The morning I was told about my 16 yr old sister was the worst day of my life.

 My heart dropped into my chest and I couldn't understand why it had happened.

 I still dont understand.

I think God just needed another angel so he took Simone, the most precious angel he will ever get.

I went to view my sisters body the night before the funeral which is probably the hardest thing Ive had to face, but Im glad I got to say goodbye because otherwise Id regret it now.

Her funeral was so sad I just cried and cried I still cry today thinking about how young she was and how her lil man now has no mother but I try to think of all the good times that me and her have had.

I cant say that I understand 4mths later why she was taken but I do know that Ill never forget her and Ill never forget her beautiful face and smile.

Ill contiue to cry for her everyday until my pain passes I dont know how Ive gotten through the last 4mths.

 I have my family and friend to thank for that.

I miss you so much Simone RIP..